Today I had a really bad day. I am currently going through a phase of not knowing what to do. There are a million things that I would love to do and there are a thousand things that I am already doing and many of which I do not fancy doing. What is this feeling inside my chest? Frustration? A burn-out? Anger? Hopelessness?
In my case it often is boredom. It is so easy for me to get bored. As soon as I do not feel challenged by something it becomes the new norm, a standard of living. That can really stand in the way of finding inner peace and happiness. For some time I thought the cure was to simply drown myself in work, not thinking or feeling anything. I also thought that if I was to stay in this sort of mode for long enough my mind and body would get used to it. “I just need to adjust my way of thinking.”
Or so I thought. I tried to live the “normal” 9-5 job kind of lifestyle with looking forward to weekends that are always too short and holidays that force to find peace and relaxation within the short time span of two weeks while ticking off places from my bucket list. But that is not working.
You need to accept who you are! You are not someone who fits into a little box that society crafted for you! Be yourself! Dare to make your own way! You are worth your while! Accept that you need to change in order to live life the way you want to live it. This quote shall be your mantra on the way to reach the life you want:
“There is always room for change, but you have to be open to that change.”